I keep over thinking stupid things and I always seem to find one way or another to stress myself up over those things. I feel really depressed and I just want to bury myself in a dark hole where I won’t have to see people and where they won’t be able to look at me - and judge me. I know, it sounds really stupid and I should just punch myself in the face and tell myself to get it together but I don’t know, I just don’t have the willpower anymore, well at least not right now.
Oishi, you’re a really sweet girl and I don’t know what I would do without you. Thank you for encouraging me and keeping my hopes up for me whenever I think I’m done for.
Anyways, I found my dad’s sleeping pills! Don’t worry, I’m not going to kill myself. I already promised myself to never go there. I just really need to sleep and shut my brain off for a while because I can’t take this crap right now.
Good night and see you tomorrow. :)